Ramblings #4

| Amie

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Guys, it’s been October 2018 since I’ve done a rambling post, and my mood today is 100% rambley.  I have too many thoughts, not enough words, and about four unfinished blog posts waiting to be finished.  What does that mean?  It means a whole post full of rambles.

I just returned home from my second walk on a Saturday morning.  In case you were wondering, yes, I enjoy walking a lot…Except when it’s already 85 degrees at ten in the morning.  A heat wave has flown through the Southern States, and blah.  This is going to be a really hot Memorial Day.

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That being said, happy national cooler day.  I feel like I need to stick my body in a cooler, LOL.  Anyway, what is your favorite soft drink/drink you find in a cooler at a party?  Lemonade or sparkling water are my favorites, followed by just plain water.

I’ve been reading my Bible a lot, and I’m actually about to start the National Bible Bee, which I’m slightly nervous about, since it is my first year doing it.  I’m so excited to get started and learn as much as I can about God’s Word, but at the moment I’ve been reading Job and learning a lot.

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I’ve been struggling with hating myself.  Well, I’ve come to realize it isn’t myself I really hate, just the sin in myself that I battle with daily.  I’ve been making a lot of mistakes, and every mistake has gotten me down.  I’m not willing to just accept that I made a mistake, ask for forgiveness and move on.  Because I really stink at moving on.

I have a hard time moving on with friendships, with projects, and with mistakes.  I like to dwell on each one, hoping it’ll get better, or wishing I could change something instead of accepting that it’s done, it’s over, and I need to look ahead instead of behind.

Colossians 3 talks about the new person we are in Christ, it speaks on what we should take off, what we should put on, and what we should set our minds to think of.  We aren’t to set our minds on the things of the earth (Colossians 3:2), but on the things of heaven.  My mistakes are things on earth.  They’re forgiven by my Savior, and prayerfully, they’re forgiven by the people I’ve injured.

My mind often tries to dwell on my mistakes.  In Philippians 4:8, we’re told to dwell on things that are true, honorable, just, pure, lovely, commendable, excellent things, and things worthy of praise.  Let me tell you, none of my mistakes are any of those things.

And so, I’m letting go, and I’m letting God.  He’s the one that can fix my mistakes, and help me to be more and more like Him in heart and conduct.  Remembering my mistakes certainly doesn’t do that.

And now we shall interrupt this broadcast to move on to a more cheerful topic, like music that Amie is enjoying.

*coughs* And there you go, that should give you a bunch of different styles and yeah.  Enjoy.

Let’s see, I have fifteen minutes before I have to wash dishes, so let me search my brain for rambles.   I honestly haven’t been doing much besides gardening, school, working, and surviving.

Due to a few health issues, I haven’t been very high energy, but we’re trying to fix that. 🙂

So I’m going to give you a run down of our 3,000 sq. ft. garden.  We’ve planted almost everything…I still have another batch of corn to plant, but we’re staggering the corn, so I think I’ll plant it mid June.

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We have marigolds all alone the edge of the garden to bring happy bugs.  We also have dusty millers to keep unwelcome guests away.  And another kind of flower to keep squash bugs away.  (Squash bugs make my stomach churn.  Blah.)

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This is an awesome picture, showing redneck engineering and our wonderful pepper plant.  Honestly, I don’t have many pictures, because after I’m done working in the garden, I don’t really want to take pictures.

We have melons, squash (four different kinds?), peppers (again, 4 or 5 different kinds), green beans, corn, tomatoes (4 different kinds?), egg plant, flowers, ummm…*brain freeze* Some other stuff I can’t remember.

And to end this slightly rambley post, what are your plans for Memorial Day?  Has summer started for you?  Do you like rambley posts, or more thought-out, interesting ones?

~~Amie~~

26 thoughts on “Ramblings #4”

  3. Oh Amie. Can I hug you? I can hug you? Cool. *offers hugs* And if you don’t like hugs I have food. That works just as well.
    I can honestly say I know how you feel- well, felt, because I’ve been struggling with hating on myself and a ton of dark stuff too– but I’m so, so glad that you know where to turn to, which is great. Keep letting go and letting God. 😉
    Second, BIBLE BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *screams head off*

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    1. *accepts hug and refuses food* Do you have coffee instead? And I’m glad I’m not the only one that’s struggled with this. It’s rather painful.
      *gives you a fist bump* Let’s do this Bible Bee.

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      1. *hands you a coffee* It is. You think you’re over it and… well.. it’s kinda there. Still.
        *determined* Oh yeah. They’ve never done Psalms before so this shall be interesting.

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  7. Ugh yeah…I’ve often hated myself…I just get this terrible wave of “you are failing at everything and behind on everything and you make everyone unhappy”…and it’s awful. And doesn’t really make any sense, but unfortunately my emotions are not to be swayed my logic. 😉 I can really sympathize with people who have panic attacks and depression, because that feeling of having no say in your emotions is very scary…
    Sorry for dwelling on the non-cheerful topic. 😀
    I love your rambly posts! You’re an interesting person, so your random thoughts and experiences are interesting.

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    1. ^^^ My life at the moment. I need to make a sign that says, “Caution: Rational brain not in use at the moment.” to warn people away. 😂 Because my emotional brain is down there, and my rational brain is over there, and there’s no way at the moment to connect the two. But that’s okay. I have faith they’ll be connected someday. (Hopefully sooner than later. 😉 )

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  8. I really enjoyed this post, Amie! Your thoughts are really interesting, I definitely like rambling posts! And your garden sounds amazing, I wish I could see it!😀

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  9. My summer break starts today, so I’m super happy about that 🙂 It’ll be nice to feel energized again and to focus on my creative interests (I’m trying to get Esther to give me piano lessons…so far it isn’t working out 😦 ). I also might be taking summer dance intensives at a different studio, so I’m excited about that.

    You have no idea how much I want a garden. Just yesterday I was rambling to my dad about how much I want chickens, bees, goats, and a vegetable garden. The thing is, our soil isn’t very good, and we have a lot of shady spots. We have a little box that we could put a few things in, but I want a big, serious garden like yours. Flowers are nice but you can’t eat them. That’s neat that you’re using different flowers to repel and attract different insects!

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    1. Yeah, summer’s awesome to keep your creative energy alive. WHAT? Esther should be giving you piano lessons. You need to learn how to play piano! Ooh, dance? That’s awesome!

      I can totally understand. It’s very depressing to have dirt, but not have sunshine. Or have sunshine, and have very bad dirt. Flowers are very nice, in a way. But produce is MUCH better. 😂

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