Shush, please, expectations leave.
You say you don’t care, you’d be proud if I work anywhere
And yet you keep pressing, you keep investing
Telling me to leave all the evil in the world that you see.
I’ll disappoint you, that’s clear
I’ll either be miserable making you happy
Or I’ll leave your world
And make my way to the world that I long for.
Let me be me
Let me be free
Why don’t you trust me?
Why do you hurt the art I create?
Why do you refuse the person I can be?
The human who dwells deep inside me
But you force me to hide away
Tell me to keep it hidden for another day
And Lord, what do you see
When you look deep inside me?
Why do the people around me
Refuse to lift the expectations put on me.
Lord, how can I survive
When these emotions crush me
I want to make them happy,
I want them to smile on me
But I’m so freaking empty
And they continue to hurt and hurt and hurt me
All the while saying that they know me
And that they only see who they want to see,
Leaving a shell of a creature who could be
Brave and kind, reliable and not shy
A person with the ability to change the world,
To make an impact so great it’s untold
But they just want me to be never leave,
They want me to continue to play and be
The actress of the century, playing myself
While only wanting to be the actual me.
When when you stop hurting me?
When will you start loving me?
When will the blood from my heart leave my hands
And wrap around your soul in prison bands
When will the vengeance from above
Finally crush all that you love
And show you that you cannot be a control freak
Or else all you love will break
Leaving you to whisper in it’s wake,
Shush, expectations, please leave.